Mono?!?!?!

Well...it has been a little while since I've been on the blog.  I need to get back on it!  And now...I have time to do so.  I have contracted Mono.  Yes, the kissing disease.  Really?  How in the world have I gotten Mono?  Yes, I may have been guilty of kissing a certain gentleman, but he is healthy and no Mono from him.  I think I got it from a kiddo at school.  And no, not from kissing, but from all their slobbering germs!!!  Gross on kissing students by the way.  That totally grosses me out!!!!

So, I have been given steroids and orders to get some rest.  All week.  No work.  Time to break out the scary movies, netflix binges, finally catch up on my reading and rest.

But see, I think there is more to this than just Mono.  I think this year has been a kick in my butt.  I have been through so much heart ache and stress that I think my immune system is done.  Shut down.  It has said, "no more Anna!"  It's time I rest.  Take care of my broken heart.  Take care of my sad soul and take care of me.  No more pleasing others.  No more doing what I think I am supposed to be doing.  What the world says I should be doing.  I need to take care of me.  I need to slow down and take care of my needs for once.  I still am very much broken.  I don't show it.  Ever.  The world has told me to suck it up buttercup and move on.  To pick up the pieces and fix my life.  But, I'm not ready yet.  And it's been exhausting pretending that I am.  It's time to slow down and let my heart heal.  Spend some deep time with God.  Let Him mend my heart and my immune system.  Make me well again.  Because, I never get sick.  Ever.  And this year?  I've had strep, mono, bruises haven't healed fast, and a weird bump on my arm.  These things never happened to me before.  I've always been healthy.  But this broken heart has broken me.  I need to heal it so I can heal everything else.  Well...God needs to heal it.  He is the only one that can.  Pray that my heart heals.  So that I can finally start feeling better!

And this has shown me that I have a huge support system and that I am not alone in any of this!  Thank you family and friends.  I love you so much!!!

I really think my life will make a good Lifetime movie by the way.  If you know anyone who is looking for a good story....I got it!