Thursday, October 22, 2015

A fairy tale-part one.


Once upon a time there was a princess who lived with her prince in their castle.  They had been married for 10 years and were quite happy...or so the princess thought.

One day, her prince shared that he wasn't sure he wanted to be married to his princess anymore.  He wasn't as happy as he had pretended to be.  The princess had begun to bore him and he wanted to see what else life had in store for him.

The princess was heartbroken.  "What have I done wrong?" she asked over and over again.  But the prince did not have an answer for her.  He just kept replying that he was not happy.  This went on for several weeks.  The princess asking what she had done wrong and the prince not being to answer her pleading questions.

One night, a wintry storm blew in.  It snowed and snowed and snowed.  In the morning the ground was covered in the most beautiful white blanket.  It glittered in the sun.  So the princess went for a walk.  She had to enjoy this beautiful and rare snow.  Her prince would not go with her  She was to go alone and experience the beauty by herself.

When she arrived back at the castle, her prince had gotten dressed and ready to go do his princely duties.  "In this weather?" the princess cried.  "The roads are not quite dry.  You could get hurt traveling so far."  The prince replied, "I can not get my duties done here with you around so I must go."

"Before you do, please share with me the photos of your surgery.  Mother wants to see them."  So the prince put in his secret code (which the princess used to know-there were no secrets between them before) to share his photos.  The princess looked over his shoulder and memorized the code.  When she knew he had left, she found his other device and used the code to get into it.  There she found messages about another woman for whom her prince was falling for.

It suddenly all made sense.  No wonder her prince would not answer her pleas.  He as in love with another.  She was devastated  How could this happen?  She was a good wife!  She did whatever her prince wanted.  She cooked, she cleaned, she wasn't a nagger.  She adored her prince and never would even think of laying eyes on another man.  And this is how he repays her?  She became outraged!  She threw everything off the bar and made dents in the walls.  She broke trinkets and a plate that was dear to the prince.  She threw their engagement photo to the ground and smashed it.  She called her prince and screamed at him.  He had nothing to say to her.  She hung up.

She called her fairy and asked for help.  He was her very best friend.  All he could say was that he was sorry.  She left the castle.  Stormed out and went to a wise woman's house who was an old and dear friend.  There her friend consoled her and told her she had every right to be mad.  She said she could stay with her until things got better.  What was the princess to do?

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Mono?!?!?!

Well...it has been a little while since I've been on the blog.  I need to get back on it!  And now...I have time to do so.  I have contracted Mono.  Yes, the kissing disease.  Really?  How in the world have I gotten Mono?  Yes, I may have been guilty of kissing a certain gentleman, but he is healthy and no Mono from him.  I think I got it from a kiddo at school.  And no, not from kissing, but from all their slobbering germs!!!  Gross on kissing students by the way.  That totally grosses me out!!!!

So, I have been given steroids and orders to get some rest.  All week.  No work.  Time to break out the scary movies, netflix binges, finally catch up on my reading and rest.



But see, I think there is more to this than just Mono.  I think this year has been a kick in my butt.  I have been through so much heart ache and stress that I think my immune system is done.  Shut down.  It has said, "no more Anna!"  It's time I rest.  Take care of my broken heart.  Take care of my sad soul and take care of me.  No more pleasing others.  No more doing what I think I am supposed to be doing.  What the world says I should be doing.  I need to take care of me.  I need to slow down and take care of my needs for once.  I still am very much broken.  I don't show it.  Ever.  The world has told me to suck it up buttercup and move on.  To pick up the pieces and fix my life.  But, I'm not ready yet.  And it's been exhausting pretending that I am.  It's time to slow down and let my heart heal.  Spend some deep time with God.  Let Him mend my heart and my immune system.  Make me well again.  Because, I never get sick.  Ever.  And this year?  I've had strep, mono, bruises haven't healed fast, and a weird bump on my arm.  These things never happened to me before.  I've always been healthy.  But this broken heart has broken me.  I need to heal it so I can heal everything else.  Well...God needs to heal it.  He is the only one that can.  Pray that my heart heals.  So that I can finally start feeling better!

And this has shown me that I have a huge support system and that I am not alone in any of this!  Thank you family and friends.  I love you so much!!!

I really think my life will make a good Lifetime movie by the way.  If you know anyone who is looking for a good story....I got it!