A day off...

I took the day off today from work.  Originally, I had planned to drive to Colorado with a friend for the weekend.  She had to cancel. I had thought about taking this trip by myself, but it wouldn't have been as fun, so....I just stayed home.  I feel I can write about this because I did take a personal day, so I can use it for whatever I want.  I didn't call in sick, so I am not lying about why I am not at work.

After my plans got changed, I thought...what do I want to do with this day off?  At first, I thought I should just cancel it.  Go back to work.  Save the day for another time.  But you see....I have a lot of days saved up.  Like 70 of them.  I have always just taken off a day here and a day there, but never all of them.  I was saving them up for an emergency, or for maternity leave or something.  So, what do I do with a day off?  Well, for starters....I slept in.  I slept for 11 hours.  It was glorious.  Sleep to me is the elixir of life.  It can solve so many problems.  Don't feel good?  Go to sleep.  Hung over?  Go to sleep.  Sad about life?  Go to sleep.  Need to work out some shit going on in your life?  Go to sleep.  I always feel so much better after I sleep for a long period of time.  No napping shit....I mean a deep, uninterrupted sleep.  It's like it gives my body and mind time to readjust and I feel I can handle anything that comes my way.

Since school started back I have just been so tired.  I kind of feel like I have the blues.  When this divorce process started, I was in survival mode at school.  Just trying to make it day to day without losing my shit in front of everyone.  Then summer happened, and I was on a free for all.  Doing whatever I wanted, when I wanted.  Just going, going, going.  Now that school has started back and my divorce is final, this is my life.  And it's kind of sad.  I get up and go to work.  I go work out, come home eat dinner, go to bed.  Ready to do this all over again tomorrow.  The same damn boring thing.  Is this what being an adult is all about?  I feel there is something more meaningful that I need to do in my life right now.  Just not sure what that it is.  Don't get me wrong.  I love teaching...I just got the blues this year.

I know I need to spend some time in prayer.  And I do.  Everyday.  God's timing is not always our timing though, and I am probably the most impatient person you will ever meet.  I hate to wait.  Hate it!  And God knows that....do you ever feel like He makes us wait for His own enjoyment?  Like, it's hilarious to Him to watch us be these impatient jerks?  There is no time in Heaven...time is an Earthly thing.  So, He just laughs at us until He is ready to show us what we are supposed to do?

So back to what I am going to do today on my day off....I don't know.  I think my birth certificate finally came in, so I need to go get my passport for my trip in November.  I will probably do that.  I thought about going to Winstar....trying my luck at some slots.  Giving me some time to drive in my car and listen to music and my thoughts.  I still might do it.  Who knows?  I guess I will let the day determine my mood and go from there.  I'll let ya know next time I update.