So what do I do now?

Oh you came back?  Thanks!  I promise I won't be too depressing.  I actually am quite happy now....I saw a quote yesterday that I am going to try to live up to each day.  "Today I will be as happy as a bird with a french fry!"  Isn't that great?

So I left off telling you about the start of the divorce.  This truly is the worst thing I have ever been through.  I never thought my husband would leave.  He loved me.  Truly loved me.  I loved him.  Never loved anyone else as much as him.   But isn't it funny how we believe lies?  I truly do believe he loved me at one time,  but he fell out of love for me when someone else came into the picture that he thought met his needs better.  Perhaps she did/does.  I don't know.  I have nothing to do with him.  We never had children, so there truly is no reason for me to ever talk/see him again.  And I am thankful for it everyday.  So, by the end of March he asked for a divorce.  March was hell.  He had made up his mind about the divorce when I called him out for cheating.  But he lied to me and went back and forth with my emotions and heart and in the end honestly broke me.  But....God is stronger than any man on this earth.  He picked up my broken self and reminded me I am His.  Always His.  I can do anything and everything through His strength.  I can not tell you how I was able to get out of bed every morning.  I can not tell you how I was able to keep a smile on my face for my sweet students every day.  I can not tell you how I did not just crawl into a ball and die.  I wanted to.  So many times.  I truly and deeply was broken.  But...God didn't let me do anything to hurt myself more.  He just kept me going.  

I'm not sure what this blog will do for others, but for me, it allows me to get some junk out.  To really say what is on my mind and my heart.  I hope you stay for the ride.  Believe me...this story just gets better!